(CNN)"Red Table Talk" returned Wednesday with "iCarly" prima Jennette McCurdy joining the conversation.
McCurdy came connected to speech with co-hosts Jada Pinkett Smith, Willow Smith and Adrienne Banfield Norris astir McCurdy's caller book, "I'm Glad My Mom Died."
The histrion writes astir being a kid star, having an eating upset and her unhealthy narration with her parent Debbie, who died of crab successful 2013.
The present 30-year-old erstwhile Nickelodeon prima work an email from her parent that was sent successful 2012, aft the her ma discovered she was successful a romanticist relationship.
It began, "I americium truthful disappointed successful you."
"'You utilized to beryllium my cleanable small angel, but present you are thing much than a little' — each caps — 'slut, a floozy, each utilized up,'" McCurdy read. "'And to deliberation you wasted it connected that hideous ogre of a man. I saw the pictures connected a website called TMZ. I saw you rubbing his disgusting hairy stomach. I knew you were lying astir Colton.' [I had told her I was with a friend, Colton]. Add that to a database of things you are: liar, conniving, evil. You look pudgier too. It's wide you are eating your guilt."
Her parent went connected to constitute that McCurdy was an "ugly monster" and ended the email by asking her to nonstop wealth for a caller refrigerator.
Undergoing therapy helped her recognize her parent was abusive, McCurdy said, and she stopped surviving successful "the indispensable delusion of my childhood."
"Just due to the fact that I was abused doesn't mean I don't emotion her," McCurdy said. "That has been truthful hard to grapple with."